Friday, 16 January 2009

Goodbye oh, gruesome semester ...

Laughter. Wild, with a bit of sarcasm in it. It has been surpressed for so long it's almost hard to let go. With it goes all the frustration and dispare that has been building up for the last weeks. No, the last months. That constant ache and pressure in my head feels weaker somehow. Almost as if "it" is exhausted as well; feeling sympathic for my tired, yet faithful eyes. In a while some time will be needed to sort all these thoughts out. Seperate reality from imagination. Chromatography from Spectroscopy. Different types of lenses and microscopes. Reagents and calculations. Precision, accuracy and quality controls. Those small functions in a dataprogram that makes everything so much easier. It's all to be processed, categoriesed and stored for a later occasion, so that my head won't feel as crowded. In a while, though. Soon. Not yet. First I need some time to let it all sink in. Accept the fact that I don't have to feel guilty anymore. For watching a film. For talking to friends. For sleeping. Accept the fact that I survived this first semester. Accept my choices and decisions. My past and future. Laughter. Blessed this time. Ready to start anew.

2 comments:

Hanna Marie said...

Fy feite, du skrive så bra! Ej ler når ej e her inne og lese:) Nyyyyt at semesteret e over! Happy you:)

Anonymous said...

hehe, takk:)
Jett om ej jer! ej he akkorat hatt 4 dagers London-avkoblingsferie..